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All About Knees

Catchy title, isn’t it?

First of all, go read this. Because that’s my monthly blog for the ICFW.

Ok. So you know my knee issues? Yes, yes you remember. No cartilage, lots of physio, blah blah.


Today I had an appointment with Performance Orthotic something or other. And I went in with my shorts and we discussed my knee issue. My issue is that I want a knee brace so I can play tennis. And go faster on the elliptical without breaking my leg. His issue is that I overpronate. Which I already know. Hence the orthotics. He asked me how long I’ve had them, and I answered that these are new as of December but I’ve worn them for four years.

Then he asked me if I wear them in the house. To which I said no, it’s gross to wear shoes in the house. And I prefer to be barefoot.

Guess what?

The mystery to my disappearing knee cartilage? Because I overpronate and my legs have twisted and worn down all the cartilage in my knees because I don’t wear my orthotics more often.

So…. that means the other knee is shot too?

Yep. Pretty much.


So I was fitted for a custom knee brace, getting a full leg cast etc. And then I was told the price.

Fifteen hundred dollars.

I’m really, really praying that Manulife will cover this….

And I ordered it in baby blue. Because it’s prettier.

Writing news: am searching for the perfect moment for heroine to get her kiss. It has to be awesome.


Reading: just finished ‘Don’t You Want Me’ by India Knight. Anyone under 18 should not read it.

Drinking: tea. pumpkin chai.

Eating: dunno. sandwich?

Listening to: City and Colour. Am in luuuurve!!!!

Up and Down

For the record? There is a lot I don’t know. Still.

I’m terribly flattered but get worried when people ask me to look at their work. Sure, I’ll look, but it doesn’t mean I have an educated opinion. Nor does it mean that if I like it, it’ll get published. And in case you were wondering, there is an unwritten rule that authors do not pass on manuscripts to their own agents or publishers.  Why? Two reasons I think. And I could be wrong. Because no one told me the answers.

1) authors work their darndest (is that a word?) to get published on their own. It is not easy. You get a lot of rejections and it hurts. It’s tough work and definitely worth the effort. It makes you stronger and gives you thicker skin. Why would you want to let someone else have the easy road? Maybe it is the green-eyed monster, but you fought tooth and nail to get published. So should everyone else.

2) the green-eyed monster.  Oh yes.  See, authors are supposed to be encouraging each other, but it is so hard! Because you look at your own book and think quietly to yourself: why didn’t I get more publicity? Why aren’t my books doing as well? Why didn’t I get another advance for a sequel? It’s hard! It’s rare to get encouragement on your own book (encouragement you can actually believe: I don’t know how many people tell me they are so excited for me and oh, no, I haven’t read your book yet… ouch.) so when you hear people ooh and aah over someone else’s book, it makes you nervous. Add when your own agent goes on and on about someone else’s book that they represent. Ouch. So you swallow thickly, possible inhale a chocolate bar and lift your chin higher.  If a friend of yours writes an amazing book … deep down you don’t want them published. Because what if they do better than you? See how awful and shallow this is?  I will freely reveal my own ugliness when a friend of mine released a CD. I was very green-eyed monster about it because yes, my book was coming out next year and yes, we aren’t even in the same genre for goodness sakes, but I was jealous! Isn’t that awful? So I made sure to make myself talk about how awesome she is and made sure to do my part during her CD launch party. I was so proud of her, so so proud of her, I mean, she’s brilliant! But deep down … I wanted encouragement of my own.  Wow. Do I look shallow. Let me be the first to admit my own shallowness … at times.

(Ok, I need to change the station. I do not want to listen to Charlie Sheen’s interview. Honestly CBC?)

Ok, this wasn’t the point of my post. The thing is, I got my royalty statement yesterday. This is the piece of paper that tells you how your book is doing. How many copies were sold in the States (because I have an American publisher), how many exported (ie Canada), how many e-books and how many ‘special deals’ (I have no idea what that means, incidentally). 

It wasn’t great. I did sell well, however, there were some returns. So let’s say I sold 2,000 books in the states (I wish!), it would say, I sold 2,000. And then right beside that, would be the (400) returns, meaning I actually only sold 1,600 books.  Except I think that I should be looking at last quarters’ sales for the returns. I think.  Anyways, for some reason I sold 3x the amount in Canada then in the U.S. (how is that even possible?). And it wasn’t a lot. I mean, it’s a lot-ish, but not what I was hoping. So it made me worry about whether the second book would still be coming out, if I’d ever get to write a third, if I was crap … stuff like that. These are things writers worry about. Incessantly.

So what did I do?

I ate two pieces of Toblerone.  And then gave it to God.

Honestly? I wrote the book because I was led to write it. It’s up to Him as to whether it does well or not.  Aaaaaaaand, as if I need to remind myself, I got to go to Paris. That was my goal. Tick, tick. Book published, Paris visited.

And I firmly reprimand myself to work on adult fiction now. NOW! Seriously, get on it!

And the good news?

I got to see the cover of Book 2. And I have no idea why the title won’t come up….


 Listening to: the bathtub and my child making fart noises

Drinking: market spice tea with Splenda. I know.

Watching: Glee. Fully addicted.

Reading: Armageddon

Serves Me Right

This is what I get for posting about wanting a change.

My beautiful, lovely, funny, brilliant, hilarious, loving, endearing, magical, crazy, kind-hearted editor, Kathleen, is leaving.

Yes, my heart is breaking and I keep leaking.

Her husband got an amazing acceptance to a brilliant University to study his amazing profession and she managed to snag an amazing job offer at a fantastic publishing house.

The other side of North America.

I am so sad.

But I’m so happy for her. This means awesome changes and brilliant times and an adventure that one needs to have before settling down to plant roots.

But oh my heart hurts.

So many thoughts are racing like mad through my mind: will she still be my bestie? will she still answer my emails? i can’t send her as many emails anymore because she’ll have a new life now. who’s going to be my new editor? will she get ‘it’? will she fight for Jackson Jones? will she be on my side? will she be the amazing brilliant editor that I need that pushes me to do my best and strain me into places I’ve never been and experience frustration/anger/writer’s block/joy/better writing/better ideas?

I don’t know.

I hate not knowing things. I think I have a fear of the unknown. I wonder if that has a name? Ok, I just looked it up and it said ‘xenophobia’. Which I’m pretty sure isn’t it. Because a ‘xenophobe’ is someone who is afraid of other people.


I’m going to eat chocolate now.

watching: nothing

eating: chocolate. don’t you listen?


Grade Four Curriculum

Jackson Jones: The Tale of a Boy, an Elf and a Very Stinky Fish is now grade four curriculum at a Christian school nearby.



Reading: Pollyanna Grows Up

Eating: chai latte, pita biscuits with cream cheese

Watching: tonight? IronMan 2!

Listening to:  Majic 100 with Codi Jefferies!


Fabulous lovely editor Kathleen called and told me to send her a picture for the back of the book! How exciting is that? I almost feel like they took a look at me and said, yah, she’s hot, let’s put her on the book. Am feeling vain right now. So then I had to run around and find a decent picture. Easier said then done. Was terribly tempted to send this one:

But it’s not terribly attractive. I mean the sunglasses are (Roots!) even though they aren’t very comfortable. And they don’t keep out the sun as much as you think.

I could use this one. But I’m seven. And for some reason, obsessed with these mittens. I can’t remember why. I think because they were smooth on the outside for making perfect snowballs and the inside was lined with fleece.

In this one, I’m teaching. And I look funny because they caught me talking at the same time. I’m teaching ‘Feeding’ to the Disaster Relief team. I had a lot of fun. But this picture makes me look serious. I might be discussing the effects of listeria or salmonella or something. Maybe I’m just saying that you’ll be eating a lot of canned food and starches, so suck it up.

So which one did I use?

They’ll probably crop out the child…. I mean, he didn’t write the book, I did.


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